I found out yesterday when I went to work that it was my last day. I am being laid off and my department closed. I am still dazed. The other layoffs happened while I was on vacation. I packed up my things, which took awhile since I've been there for 12 years. My supervisor was very compassionate, and I could tell he didn't want this to happen to me.
I am feeling very sad that I didn't get to say goodbye to the people at work. It's a hard thing to comprehend. I had projects in process, and now they are abandoned. I also have a lot of apprehension about losing health insurance, income, and having too much time to focus on my body and my OCD thoughts. It helped to see my therapist today.
I cried when my husband told me that we needed to make sure we found a way for me to keep seeing my therapist, because he knows that will help me deal with the loss, and that he wants me to enjoy my life, that this is important to him. I am very grateful he is in my life.
I regretfully canceled my trip to the IOCDF Conference in order to conserve funds. I am disappointed I will not get to meet some of the wonderful readers of this blog! I hope that at some point in the future, our paths will cross.
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