I assume I suck at practice. Actually, I have amazing practice skills ~ practicing old rituals and patterns. I am going to a Mindfulness Meditation group, using the book Mindfulness: A Practical Guide to Finding Peace in a Frantic World by Mark Williams and Danny Penman. The defining word is "practice." Practicing being present. Practicing being with my body sensations and all the attendant thoughts.
It's been a hard few months, with medical tests and uncertainty, with one problem receding and another advancing, and all the old health anxiety stuff surging up. I knew I needed to do something to help take care of myself.